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– it frustrates me so much that you always miss deadlines or make things so stressed to meet them.
– you know how I am, though: I can’t bear to turn in anything that feels incomplete, something that stinks of not being properly done. It weighs so hard on me. It exposes me. It makes me feel as if I’ve embarrassed myself in public, and you already know I can’t live with myself that way. I don’t allow it of myself.
– I understand, and I know it’s hard, but what isn’t good enough for you is more than good enough for them. so can’t you learn to feel the same way about being late?
– it’s not like I don’t feel bad about it, but I’ll force myself to feel the same kind of bad. at least I know I won’t be able to live with myself either way. But I’ll hit this deadline, I promise. It matters.